Believe it is Real. - IMPERFECT Lady

As I look at the two different modes of relationships, friendship or a person who is looking after your soul's best interest, I can totally understand the ocean of difference it left me in.

The typical friendship of my past, never dipped into what was good for the truthful part of me...its sole purpose was to keep me from being authentically me. ?It helped me polish my exterior finish.

It was almost like a pretend game...or perhaps was a pretend game.

Even the interactions between my sisters and I was pretty pretend. Often we would agree to agree in person, but in truth, we were leading different lives.

I wouldn't speak of certain things, I knew would annoy them...and they would do the same courtesy to me. ?Each of us knew the invisible fence of our relationships. ?The topics we would not agree on...and in order to get along, kept a wide berth of the topic. ?

I had similar relationships all over. ?There was an odd dance of knowing our differences, but never speaking of them....and in doing so, "we got along".?

We got along as long as neither of us ever wanted to be truthful.

The authentic being or spiritual partnerships is the total opposite.

We are not afraid to address the things that are inauthentic, we are drawn to the fence (topic) that sets us apart. ?

It isn't so much as the topic of discontent, but the way we handle it in a spiritual partnership. We go into it and search for reasons and root causes of why we think the way we think or act the way we act. ?We don't hold it at arms length.

From my experience, it is near impossible to continue on a relationship with someone who is not seeking to become authentic...while the other is. ?Well, I guess you can, but you then reach a place called, social niceties.

You become friendly....but are no longer friends, let alone spiritual partners. ?You come to a place of parting...

I totally get the difference between me and many...and it is I guess all my fault. ?I changed the way I lived my life...and then it changed the way our relationship worked...it didn't work.

For me to go back to the old mode of friendship is impossible now that I have lived authentically. ?It was okay to live inauthentically while truly believing it was my truth. ?But once you know your truth is falsehood, you can no longer put your faith in that which you know is not true.

My old friendships and relationships all kept me believing or living in a false representation of my life. ?The friendships got left in the place where falsehood lives.

I don't know how to interact with them anymore...they just seem like actors in a play outside of reality. ?I can't pretend to believe it is real.

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Source: http://imperfectlady.typepad.com/my-blog/2012/03/believe-it-is-real.html

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